Baby Your the Greatest....

Yes I look a bit different in this pic but he still loves me. WOW baby one more day and it wll be offically 1 year since we met. WOW, the stuff we have gone thru, almost breaking up, some fights we had, but we always got up after it. Right up and we are stronger and tighter than ever.

Without you i would have just built stuff to give away instead of looking for a place for a store. Without you i wouldn't have stayed on SL as long as this. Without you in my life I would be just another avi looking for something that i would never find. Instead out of the blue a man, with the IM that said... "Those legs would look good wrapped around me...oh btw Hi I'm Xen =)" I was like how rude and just started talking to him. From then on we haven't been able to stay away from each other.

He makes me smile when i am down, knows my moods and even knows the "Xen's an asshole" outfit. This man is someone that every woman looks for but doesn't realise they have it.

All i can say is baby your the greatest and the best thing to happen to me in a long long time. You are all mine, a need, a must have... you are the air I breathe & the water I drink. You are what i need to survive both SL & RL.

I take you off SL every night when we log. I close my eyes and see you and smile. When i am lonely I log off and think about you. When i need to smile I just look at some pictures and remember things we have done and a smile appears on my face.

I can't be away from you love. You my dearest man, are something that I need. I need you Xen I need you more than life itself at times. I care more about you than anything else.

A year has past and these feelings just grow stronger and stronger. You came into my life as a friend and you are now in my heart as a lover and husband. You never hurt me or when you do you don't mean it. I know you will never leave me and rip me apart like some have and this I know is not a lie.

Thank you for loving me and making me yours and ONLY yours. One day left and it will be a year :o) WOW

Nikki & I

My Sis Nikki & I having some fun putting on the ears and tails I made. I miss ya chica. I might not talk to you everyday but i do think about you and I can't wait til I get home to actually be in the almost the same time zone. You mean the world to me Nikki. You are the best friend that i could ever want. :o) *HUGGLES*

You Know...

Its funny how things happen. You loose one someone that hurts you and pushes you away and only needs you on their terms and you find some new amazing people.

Firstly, we have Six, we have been kinda friends since Lucifer's and even talked a bit in SR but we have gotten to know each other and talk a some. You are amazing. Your funny, kind, caring, like a person I can't wait to become better friends with.

Fury, well you keep rocketing my daughter into space I will have to beat you up!!!!!!! But again you are great. We pick on each other, poke fun at each other. You are almost like a brother without that annoying smell that comes from the bathroom after them LOL...

You 2 guys are awesome, have helped me understand a lot of things in SL recently.

Next we have Snaptick or snappie like i call him. You are great. Tri introduced us and you are wonderful. You are worse than I am with sillyness and DON'T EVEN SAY YOU AREN'T cus YOU ARE!!!!! Snap you are both my ikkle nutter when you are madi are together and like my brother when we talk. Again like tri you tell me when something is fubard or just plain OUT THERE LOL. I am so glad i met you.

I have met a few others like Silver, Gaid, Fuzzy and Take but haven't really spent tons of time with you guys but i am assured that you guys are like snap... not sure if i should be scared or not but EH, I will find out soon enough.

All you guys came into my life when i was down. You picked me up each in your individual way and made me smile. For this I thank you all. Things happen for a reason. The reason here was to open my life up to some amazing people. I am very happy I met you all, however I am not happy how it happened. Like i said things happen for a reason...

BIG HUGGLE AND CUDDLE. Thanks all of you.

Scarey

YES I KNOW... i will be spanked again BUT there was NO WAY in hell that this wasn't going into this blog. Talk about having a phobia with clowns... DAMN i so wouldn't want to met him in a dark alley or even after the circus is over.

Yes that is Xen and Me at my brothers new club Freakheim Funeral Home. Its awesome there and the music kicks ass :o).

Ok baby you can spank me now. I will take it like a little girl LOL. Love you baby.

Drama Free

Yes I am happy, people try like hell to take that away from me alot. They don't see the point of one person being happy when they aren't happy at all. Well, what i say to them... take your anti-depressants and cheer the fuck up.

Don't screw with ppls feelings when they are happy, look at yourself, think about what makes you happy. Alot of things make me happy. Like my friends, Xen, being on my own, listening to music and doing stuff I like.

If you can't be happy, then don't ruin things for others. I mean ffs ppl, have fun, don't cause drama. that is not what life is for. You want drama, watch ER, CSi, go to a play, read a book or do your drama somewhere else. NO DRAMA here.... no one wants it OR needs it.

Tri... Snap...

Tri, you are an amazing woman. You show me that i am a great person. You make me smile when i am upset and i love you for this. You came into my life via Sanctuary Rock where i work and asked me about working and we just started talking. I knew right away you would be a dear friend. We have so much fun together. I know lately you have been with Take and fishing etc... but that doesn't bother me cus you are happy and I love you no matter what chica. You are such an awesome friend.

Snappie poo poo... The first day i met you, you welcomed me with open arms. Tri introduced us and now i have kidnapped you or better yet AVInapped you and made you a ikkle nutter. The only male ikkle nutter. You are amazing, you like Tri make sure i am happy and i have to say I am so happy to have you in my life. I can see you also become a good if not awsome friend.

My two ikkle nutters you mean alot to me. Thank you for coming into my life :o) *HUGGLES*

My love

I know i don't tell him enough I love him. Gawd almost a year and it still feels like the first time being in his arms, with him, talking to him.

This man is my everything. He knows me so much better than anyone. I can talk to him about everything. My feelings, having a bitch fest, and OMG the silliness that we get up to. Its awesome.

I see on Second Life people jumping into partnerships after 1 or 2 days, well Xen and I have been best friends since may 1st 2007 and haven't looked back since. We didn't reveil our feelings for each other til like 2-3 weeks into the freindship and then he moved in with me in July and then we partnered and volia we are here now.

This man, OMG is my SL. I feel like a piece of me is missing when he isn't around. That is why i spend alot of time building things. I miss him and this keeps my mind occupied.

Lately i haven't been on as much and i have been missing him so much. I have been so lonely without him. I know he will see this cus he likes to read the shit i post and makes sure i don't post any funny pics like Rag doll, mickey and minne and even the nerd... WHOOPS already done baby :o) YOU SO LOVE :o)

Xen is a dream come true for me. He knows my moods and i couldn't live without him.

So please one word of advice, if you are going to partner, think, SL is like RL you have feelings just like you do in the real world. You need to think about your actions. If you have an alt, make it known to the person that you are with. Yes i have an alt and she is only used to hold my lindens. So please, if you partner, don't make it such a task in spending time with each other. You partnered for a reason, cus you want your best friend/lover close to you and you don't want to be apart. So think before you do anything. I have seen too many people hurt, too many people lied to and too many people turned to stone and push their friends away. THESE are REAL FEELINGS... Second life is NOT a game.

Thank you for loving me...

It's hard for me to say the things

I want to say sometimes

There's no one here but you and me

And that broken old street light

Lock the doors

We'll leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

For parting my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream

Until that dream was you

When I look into your eyes

The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart

I wear no disguise

If I tried, you'd make believe

That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

For parting my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down

You ring the bell before they count me out

If I was drowning you would part the sea

And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors

We'll leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

Oh, When I couldn't see

You parted my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly

Oh, you gave me wings

You parted my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

Oh, for loving me

A great man

Anyone that knows me, knows how i talk about my Xen. YES MY XEN no one elses and he is the best. This man puts up with me thru everything. He has been there when i was at my lowest cheering me up, pulling me off the walls when i am hyper, talking with me when i am pissed off trying to chill me out. Even stuck by thru Lucifers and Gothic Perfections.

This man might get moody at times, be an asshole most of the time (the good kind of asshole not the nasty kind), and play pranks on people, even suck souls thru noses when people aren't around. But this man is my everything. He is my best friend, my partner in crime, my baby, my love, my lover, and my husband. He is funny and silly, you can tell that by the pictures of him and I dressed as Rag Dolls, Mice and he has even dressed up as a priest.

Xen is amazing, I never thought we would last this long but on May 1st we will be together for a year. Its weird how when you first start a friendship you don't expect it to evolve into anything but that. We got closer as the weeks went by and found that each of us would log onto the SL to see each other, wanting to spend time together nothing more. He moved in with me on the 1st of July, which made me speechless, then asked me to partner him on the 4th of July, again speechless, and then on the 8th of July he asked me to be his wife. OMG you talk about speechless. We finally got married on the 13th of July, yes it was quick but it was perfect. We had the people there that we wanted and that is all that counted.

I log on and I think of Xen, I smile so wide when i think of this man its shocking. I never thought i would feel this way about him but I love him. With all my heart and soul. No one will tear us apart. People have tired many times, sending him pics, saying that i was with someone else when Xen could tell it wasn't me. Sending them logs and all this other shit. Sorry ladies and gents, it won't work. I might flirt when i work but the people that know me, know that I am all his and you can try all you want but I am ONLY his and he is MINE!

Also, for you people that said we would only last a year... Baby, look at us now. All you guys that dumped my friendship cus I was with him... YOUR OWN FAULT... you had so much time to be with me, YOUR loss NOT mine. I got a right treasure here and i won't be giving him up ever.

Also to the first guy who went on a hissy fit, telling me to back off and when i did, I moved on with my life. You then started to talk to me sending TP's to talk to you thinking that we would get together. Then when i told you i was partnering Xen you thru the ultimate hissy fit that almost made Xen think twice about it... well dick... I am so happy, I got the best man and it you have shown me thru what 3 partners so far you had, that I would have been just a thing for you to play with til I was broken and then you would have gotten rid of me.

The second guy, who i was just a side thing to while he was with his main thing. Dumping me each weekend and hurting me so many times. I am happy i made that decision that i wanted to stay with Xen and not you. You acted like the biggest baby, picking fights, sending me sex things thinking that you would change my mind. Most of all just hurting me. Well Xen told me each weekend that you would come back he would sit there and see my name on and know i was with you, when most of the time I was alone and you were with her. That hurt him so much and in my heart I know i didn't want you anymore but i wanted someone of my own... Well I have him.

Xen you my one and only, my heart, my soul, my friend. The only man that will ever know me the way you, a husband should know me. You know me on and off line. You get me, understand me, know my moods, and most of all love me for me and not wanting to change me. Ok ya I wear cookie protection or play ground covering now but that is me. That is all you have asked over the last year and i am shocked, when that is all you want me to change. Well baby I am willing to change anything for you. I hope you know this.

My love, you are mine and all mine. You are the one for me and I will always be yours. I love you baby... i do.

Beloved - VNV Nation

It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting don't you think?
To dress the ground in white and grey


It's so quiet I can hear
My thoughts touching every second
That I spent waiting for you
Circumstances affords me
No second chance to tell you
How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
Than a need to remember


We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keep us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still, greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

My beloved do you know
How many times I stared at clouds
Thinking that I saw you there
These are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed as ours

Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
Grant me wings that I might fly
My restless soul is longing
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits


My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
Than a need to remember


My beloved do you know
How many times I stared at clouds
Thinking that I saw you there
These are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed as ours

Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
Grant me wings that I might fly
My restless soul is longing
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits

Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
Grant me wings that I might fly
My restless soul is longing
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits.


Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
Grant me wings that I might fly
My restless soul is longing
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits

Bish Bish Bish...

LOL... whast else should a blog be used for than to actually put down how you feel. Get things out from inside so you don't explode.

Well I did this in previous blogs below and some people say (yes i am being nice) that i am writing veiled crap in my blog. Well I just don't put names in some blogs of people that hurt me, I don't like people thinking that if you hurt me your an assholes cus 7 out of 10 times your wrong. I let people form their own opinion. If you think the blog is about you then whatever. I know who it is about.

If you have a question about a blog when you read it IM me, don't ASSUME its about you. I am venting my feelings over months and months of hurt and pain from people. I just realised last week that some people are right fuckers and no matter how much you care about them it doesn't matter cus they will hurt you so much, even after almost of year of friendship.

Well all i can say if GET THE FUCK OVER IT... if your name isn't in the blog, it may or may NOT be about you. SO shut the fuck up, move on and learn to cope. If you remember the incident then ya its about you, you have a problem with what i write in my blog, OH WELL... i don't see your name on the top. Make a comment, out your side on it inside of hurting others like most love to do.

AND if you think the posts are wrong, send me a comment and tell me which ones, cus from my logs and being in most of the situations and feeling like that I would say they are right but if you feel otherwise fine. Just don't bish behind peoples backs, be truthful and come forward. It makes you look like you have something to hide. Also if you think its wrong, don't start shit in open chat. That isn't adult like, but alot of people that are on Second Life aren't that much of an adult. They might have kids, they have the age but spreading rumors and talking behind backs seems to be a mjor SL thing to do.

If you are reading this and seem to thing ya ok I will and i think its wrong.. etc etc then fine. kewl, just be an adult that is all i ask. Don't hurt someone over thier feelings cus that makes you feel better. Its petty and you need to grow up if you like being petty, fine but I'm an adult, I don't spread rumors, I don't talk behind people's backs and i especially don't see the point of hurting someone over how they feel.

Eh, its life. You don't like it Oh well... grow up, move on and be an adult.

Updated Nutter Family....

Let's update The Nutter Family

Starting with Momma Nutter... that would be me LadyStar Ferraris - Huet

Poppa Nutters - Xen Huet (my best friend/love/husband/partner) & Marvel Kit

Auntie Nutters (my Sis) - Kaedy Ferraris, Tifa Tripp, Gyspy Markova

Old Nutter (Granny & Gramps) - Slobie Bolero - Granny

Unkie Nutter (my Bro's) - Rykk Ferraris, Tallan Snoring, Valin Reiner, Ash Greggan, Bio Swindlehurst, Vito Sarlo & Kdywmps Meltzer

Ikkle Nutters (kids) - Douleur Paine (Marvel's), Jen Tone, Leetah MacKay (Marvel's), Tri Destiny, Tyana Maidstone, Myf McMahon, Silver Garfield & Snaptick Laxness (only Boy Ikkle Nutter)

PITA in Law KNut (Pain in the ass In Laws), Takezo Blackburn (not a PITA at all), Von Yifu (the biggest) & Aidan Matthews

Nutter @ Heart - Zakora Trevellion

The above people are all in the nutter group... enjoy a nut today...

Fishing

Thanks to Tri and Snap today I have taken up fishing. Its SOOOOOOOOOO much fun. you just sit there and fish. Snap made this HUD that is automatic casting and it helps so much.

Best of all its the fun things you can get. hehehe I got a bunch of extras so i either deleted them or gave them away.

Fishing so rocks, its awesome and i can't wait to have a fishing contest soon at the Nutter home. :o) HUGS

Friends

You know the saying keep friends close and keep your enemies closer... Well, in this case no LOL... I am feeling awesome about all the new friends I met, like Silver, Lazer, Take, Snap (OMG SNAPPIE), Gaidion and Fuzzy.

You guys are the best and i need to thank Tri for introducing me to these guys. Thanks :o) You showed me how fun fishing can be and the stuff you catch OMG its great...

I foresee a nice nutter fishing contest coming up and i can't wait.

Ya i am happy, no need to be sad. I have some awesome people that care about me. Like Tri, Six, Fury, Rykk, Kaedy, Nikki and MOST OF ALL Xen.

Without you guys today would have been hard but you made me see things, its easier, leaving things go than most think. Ya it will hurt but its life. You learn to cope and you have friends for support. Its awesome, thanks for everything. *HUGGLES*

Eh...

Things happen for a reason... i believe in this totally. Yes things do happen for a reason, I know that people leaving and other people coming into my life both in the Real World and on Second Life, there is a reason.

I know hearing rumors about things, they are there for a reason too, but don't assume that the rumors are true. Somethings are there to make the people that started them look better. But eh, some people are psychic vampires and need to drain other people's emotions to make them feel better. You all know who you are.

Loosing someone who you thought was your friend over something petty like talking to a new friend about Hair and shopping (which is the truth) happens for a reason. OH well... It at least shows me that I was never really needed in the first place, never wanted and most of all never cared about.

Things do happen for a reason. They make you understand what and who are important in your life experiences. Who you want to keep close and push away, oh well... things do happen for a reason. As i said before I won't talk bad about people, won't spread rumors but ALL I KNOW is one day they will need someone around, and I won't be there, I will be busy with othe things that are important to me.

My Blog

You know the stuff i write here is about my feelings, about how I feel. If people think that i am blaming people for stuff NEWP... i accept things that i do. I know what i do, if i do something wrong then yes I will accept the fact i did something wrong.

BUT if i feel like i did nothing wrong except try and help someone heal when they were dumped for no reason and help them find the reason and move on and then one day I get a petty comment. then Yes that is not my fault. I will ask what i did and trust me I have and all i got was lies. If i did nothing then i will put my feelings down to get them out.

I have logs yes i look at them and you want to believe I hurt you fine then i did. HOWEVER, in this case. I know i didn't do anything, all i did was talk to someone about a new hair shop and clothes shop. You weren't talking to me and you decided right there that i would be nothing to you anymore. That was your decision NOT mine. I apologised way before that, so much before that and all i got was its ok its not you.

So if you think i am blaming you for something when you read my blog fine then that is your choice. NOT mine. If you think i am at fault for talking to a friend about stuff FINE then its my fault. If you think my blog is all about you... SORRY its not. its about my feelings and my stuff... notice the name on it... LADYSTAR, not yours.

LOL... Spank me now

You know you love someone when no matter what they put on they are still sexy.

Anyone that knows Xen and I knows that we like doing funny things at times. Like the Mickey and Minne, Raggedy Dolls, we have been a Nun and a Priest and even tiny avi's. LOL. BUT i had to do this. Xen yelled at me for the last post and said he was going to spank me. So how i see it, if your gonna get spanked, might as well go all out and let him make that ass red.

We this one is you for baby. At an event Worst vs Best and of course you had to be the nerd whilst Tri & I were hot and sexy.

And I SO LOVE YOU... so no pulling the I don't love you shit cus i do :oP. *wiggles her ass to tempt you* BRING IT ON baby, spank me cus now everyone can see you, SILLY AS HELL. DON'T ever change cus you are perfect in my eyes.

Some people...

I think last week or the week before, it was a Monday i think, I was having a horrid day. Was being upset by everyone and anyone that could do it... Well I had to work at 8am at Sanctuary Rock and i got an IM from someone asking to dance.

Well anyone that knows SR knows that there are specific spots that ppl dance at etc... This person came in and was telling me to move out of HIS spot. When i refused to he went further about pushing me etc.

So i went to the GM and told her to fire me. I was having a horrid day and this wasn't the first time he pulled this shyt. Well NOW his woman treats me like utter crap. I say Hi to her and all i get is hey LS or LS and that is it. FFS GROW THE HELL UP... Even when she is taking over the shift I hardly get a thanks but the dancer and DJ gets a major thanks.

Talk about petty. Sheesh he talks to me but eh, i guess the older you are the more set in your ways you are. I mean damn get over it, he did the shyt and YES i have the full log of it. Yes I was pissed off and didn't talk to him or hardly anyone after that. Such is life, people have bad days but as i said ppl are petty, ppl want to cause drama and i don't do drama, so if you can't handle shyt don't start shyt.

I got the perfect top today at White Lily as a Monday freebie there... Tuff Gurl - Don't Fuck with me it says and trust me, I am too happy to care.

You and others want to listen to one side of the stories that is fine BUT remember, what goes around, comes around. KARMA is a cunt it hits when you don't want it to and when it does DAMN... 3 fold to you. OH WELL... As i said, things happen for a reason, the reason for me is to give me less stress. The reason for anyone else, eh don't know, don't care either.

I care about a few less people now on SL and these people mean the world to me.

Thanks to all that have helped me thru this. I know some of you have had RL to take care of but you were here for me in your own way. For this I thank you.

Happiness...

OMG today has been such a weird day. Firstly, I thought i destroyed all my pain pills, by accident, and would have to wait til friday to get more but i found some OMG did i need them.

Then I got to see Xen, which i normally don't see on Mondays cus they are so hectic for him :o( and i miss him so much.

Then an Old friend that I thought i lost cus of someone else came to the club i was working at and we talked and talked and then started like we never stopped. He is a great dude and i am happy to call him a friend. THAT FREAK RED NECK LOL....

Then OMG i logged back on and someone bought 600L worth of my items, which totally shocked me. I was so happy.

Last week hurt alot, but i am moving on, this should be the last thing i say about this subject but since she can heal so quickly and move on so fast today I removed her from my profile, yes i know i will hear comments and snide remarks but she threw me away not vice versa. She made the comment about resigning as my twin not vice versa, she became petty over me talking to someone else about stuff NOT me.

Yes I know i hear things being said but eh, ppl like to gossip, it their nature but I decided a long time ago I will not be part of drama, that is why i left Lucifer's and Gothic Perfections and will not manage another place again. I don't do drama, i will be professional, speak when i am spoken too and so on. She might be rid of me soon and i know she will be happy about that but when i move home, gawd knows when/if i will be able to work there but life goes on and things happen for a reason.

Yes some changes don't hurt and will make you happy, other hurt and make you upset. Yes this was the latter of the 2 but you learn the hard way. You get treated like shyt by people that seem to only want you around if you are of benefit. I so hope that this wasn't what our friendship was but who knows. She would have done this over anything.

OH well... life marches on and time waits for no one. I am healing, won't forget how i was treated or how i was made to feel last week but with time it will heal.

Love ya all and OMG *jumps around* i got my friend back!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!

Yes that is us...

OK yes we are rag dolls, and it was great. We went to a sexy event and YOU KNOW WHAT.... we so didn't win LOL...

OMG who wouldn't find a Raggedy Xen and a Raggedy LadyStar sexy as hell... Well I know i found Xen that way.

Yes we are weird but you gotta love us :o) We ca make anyone laugh in that get up. Hey I might wear it today at Sanctuary Rock for the angel/devil event at 8am. It has white, blue, red and black in it. AND OMG WOOHOO hot as hell.

I'm Fine

I'm fine since the day you hurt me

I'm fine since the day you did all those petty comments

I'm fine when people ask about you, i send them to you

I'm fine when i work with you

I'm fine knowing you don't need or want me around

I'm fine with my life how it is

I'm fine knowing that I have people that care about me and not what i give them

I'm fine thinking that we won't be friends like we use to

I'm fine knowing that I have Friends that won't replace you but will help me get over loosing you

I'm fine, perfectly fine knowing that you don't care

I'm fine, really I am.

OK, maybe...

I am not fine with knowing you can hurt someone that is close to you

I am not fine hearing rumors from people that I don't know

I am not fine with people telling me this, that and the other

I am not fine knowing i lost my clothes and hair shopping buddy

I am not fine loosing my twin

I am not fine feeling empty

and

I am not fine knowing that you don't want me around

However...

I will be fine in time it won't be that sharp pain but a dull ache

I will be OK in time when I log on, it will not hurt as much

I will be OK in time when we work together, I will just be a host you work with.

BUT

All in all I AM FINE!!!!!!!

Another Day...

Another day is turning into a "normal" day. Its lonely without you around. I want to put my arms around you and just lay in your arms.

Another day is getting boring without you near me. You came on and I wasn't there, you were here without me and I miss you.

Another day is being made better cus I know I will see you soon, an email, a off line message. The best way to talk to you even if we both aren't on at the same time.

Another day is making me smile due to you being in my heart, soul and mind all the time.

Another day is another day without you but another day is an extraordinary day with you near me.

You might not be online right now love but this is NOT another day, this is the best day out of so many best days due to having you in my heart, body & soul.

Another day... pfft hell no, this is the PERFECT DAY!!!!!!!

Relationships

Some people think OMG i won't be having a relationship on SL. NEWP i don't want one but it happens. Mine did and when you spend anywhere between 3-6 hours with a person you start caring about them. You start to develop feelings. Happened to me 12 months ago. Xen popped into my life as a friend, and slowly became my best friend where i couldn't' wait for him to come on line and hang with him. We joked around alot and danced at different places. BUT most of all... we found the urge to be with each other which made it stronger when we finally admitted our feelings.

Even now after almost 12 months Xen and I love each others company. We don't need to go out, we can sit on the swing and just talk. People find it weird that we can just sit on the beach cuddling or dancing and even joking around and just talk. Like below.
We talk about alot of stuff. I think in a good relationship you need to just enjoy each others company. Not worry about going to clubs when you aren't in the mood, or around others. I love just sitting in my baby's arms and enjoying the time I have with him.

We talk about everything, from how our days were in SL and RL to how annoying some ppl are or even just joke around with each other. We push each other around on the beach. I even push him in the ocean to wash them damn socks of his. LOL
Its great just sitting with someone and not worrying about people around you. Not worrying about how people judge you or talk about you. I say you can't enjoy the company of your friends and loved ones alone with no one around then you shouldn't be with them especially if you are in a relationship and you don't spend time with them at all.

I have had alot of people ask me where they can find a man like Xen. Sorry ladies and guys he is one of a kind.

I find ways to be with him not ways to run away from him. I hate hearing when people (ladies and guys) say "Oh I guess I have to spend time with my partner." WTF you partnered the person why the hell did you do that if you didn't want to spend time with them. FFS ppl think before you do that. I have seen to many people hurt because of a stupid partnership where you don't think.

ALSO to top it off... you should WANT to spend time with the person, doesn't mean you can't have fun. GAWD, Xen jokes around with most of my friends and the stuff he says in IM's to them... GAWD i am shocked they haven't muted him LOL...

My word of advice before you partner, don't just jump into it after a few days, I waited 2 months and the days just keep getting better. Partnered 4th of July, Proposed marriage the 8th of July and became the "Ole Ball and Chain" on the 13th of July. He made me a mommy on the 4th of April also :o) hehehe 9 months later... Truth of the fact, he knocked me up and HAD to marry me LOL.... hehehehe. But seriously think before you act, they are real feelings you are playing with. No point in hurting everyone around you just so you can say I was partnered to so and so.

Oh Well...

Oh well people use me and still continue to do so

Oh well I tried my hardest to make people happy

Oh well no one worries about me and how life is for me

Oh well at least I have one person that truly loves me

Oh well no one seems to think I have feelings

Oh well I shall go on

Oh well no one seems to wonder why we don't talk like we use to

Oh well that one person that can say sorry is as stubborn as I am

Oh well i guess you talking to me I should take as forgiveness for something i didn't create

Oh well I will understand life soon enough

All i can say is OH WELL...

:o)

Okay, luv ya, buh bye

Yes you hurt me, yes you replaced me, Yes you hate me but I never hurt you and if i did it wasn't being spiteful. I care about you even tho you are replacing me. OH well... its life and changes happen. I will care about you and wonder about you. Just so you know I will be professional at work even tho I am hearing rumours about stuff said. I will be your friend if you need one but yes you did this not me. You did what others did to you and I swore i would never do that to you but you did that to me.

Oh well... no tears to be shed no more over this. Not a drop. I did enough of that on the first day and no more. I have my support and the people that care about me. If you don't want to be one of them, that is fine your decision not mine. I will be the stronger person here and just treat you like i did when we first worked together.

Thank you for your friendship, thank you for the caring, thank you for everything you did for me and the help you gave me. If you need me I am here for you that won't change but remember time doesn't always heal all wounds. This will be a touchy subject but in time ya it will become less dull still doesn't mean i don't care.

So... Okay, Luv ya Buh Bye....

Bad, Hurtful and Using "Friends"

Friends may come and friends may go but the ones that stay with you and care about you even if they talk to others about things that you normally talk about with other.

I know that that sounds weird but the closest people that you never thought would or could hurt you and they do... it kills cus you don't expect it at all.

Some friends try to replace you like you didn't matter at all, like you are nothing... Well all i know is I am better and no tears are going to be shed over this again. You know who you are, you want to treat me like shit, go ahead but remember Karma happens in 3 folds, especially when a wiccan/pagan is involved.

BUT i don't do things on spite like some people do. I don't make rude comments like some people. I don't talk about people behind their backs, use them then discard them.

There are many people that have done this to me alot I can name a few... Aurrora Dagger, Primal Shepherd, Adrianna Woodget and a few more but they won't be named cus they know they did wrong.

We will start with Aurrora, You and I worked together at a few places, you would go off and cyber during work and leave me to do your job and you got all the tips, you would partner with someone and the next day or even a few hours later you would departner... DAMN the lindens got alot of money form you. What was it about 20 partners in the 1st month I was with Xen. Then you wold come running to me to make it all better. To listen to you cry about how much you loved this person in the few hours you were with them... More like it it was how much you cybered with them the few hours you were with them . You then partnered with Jaque a friend of mine, and even then you cybered with other people. Wanted to make a home with him but you couldn't stop your urge to cyber with other men. Even the day i was getting married some of the comments you made and that comment that you never thought i would hear about Xen and I only lasting a week. Well baby... I am 12 months along with meeting Xen, married for 10 of them months and we might have our downs but we always got up after it. I never once had the urge to find another man. You may keep trying to break us up but it won't happen. I can go on about how much i was used, treated like shit by you and ignored until you wanted something. You insisted on taking over my wedding, taking over MY special day... well BLAH to you. I know who loves and cares for me.

Primal now you, You first asked me to be your Host manager, then dance manager but newp you had these filled up... then you blamed me for your first host manager leaving, you can blame Sam & T for that. I did what the GM wanted me to do. Plus she was only a greeter, I never once saw her fill for people, bring in as many people as i did and do up rules and run the hosts how they should be. NEWP not a thanks on site for keeping Lucifer's running for you. Instead I get belittled and treated like shit. SORRY no go. You left alot of times and left me and Bio to run that place. Can't remember how many times we ran that place and paid the wadges to people out of our own pockets and not to be reimbursed. The pay you would give me I NEEDED to give to the staff you wanted there. Then you go and fill the place with campers JUST to get in the popular list. You say your a business man in RL well then you should have done your homework on Lucifer's before you bought it. I guess you didn't care as long as you has a LAGGY HELL HOLE. Instead of that place you wanted like Sanctuary Rock... Well I see that Sanc is still there and Lucifer's is no longer around... OH WELL your loss and I am happier for it :o)... You used me like so many others to get what you wanted. When i was asked about the place I told the truth "The Owner of Lucifer's is non-caring. He isn't around and if you paid the money for rent of your stall I would contact him and report him to Linden Labs" but you couldn't handle the truth like many others. You brought this on yourself and then you disappear and make an few alts up. Pfft... perfect go fuck with someone else.

Adrianna... NOW what shouldn't i say about you... Firstly lets start with the back stabbing. The name calling you said about me. Calling me a slut, whore, 2 timer and this is the mild stuff... YOU are a psychic vampire YOU need to feed on others emotions to be happy. Well the stuff you did and said about me will never be forgotten. I might not dwell on it but you did this NOT me. AND OMG can i say first you partner with Primal, then another Man, most likely Primal's alt, then a woman and now YOU NEED TO BE COLLARD... OMFG can't you keep anyone happy. OH Well... who am i to talk eh, I have one man for the last 12 months. That is nothing or is it. :o) I would just say maybe if you were cybering with people and sending pictures of your tits and other body parts to men over the net you would keep someone. OH WELL

NOW you 3 if this is hurtful in anyway then I must have hit on the truth. I won't stand by and be used, talked about behind my back or even people trying to break Xen and I up. I protect myself and the few people I care about on SL. YOU fuck with me BE WARNED you WILL BE FUCKED BACK and KARMA is a cunt that hurts. YOU all did this to me and you all are getting it back now. I don't do it right away... I wait and strike when you aren't ready. SO Sorry if it hurt... cus I don't care about any of you anymore.

Psychic/Energy Vampires

I had/have some friends that are "Psychic/Energy Vampires" yes it sounds weird but there are all sorts on Second Life (http://www.secondlife.com/) or SL as people call it.

If you don't know what a Psychic/Energy Vampire is this is waht the Wikipedia says or describes them as.... An energy vampire or psychic vampire is a being said to have the ability to feed off the "life force" (often also called qi, prana, energy or vitality) of other living creatures.

Basically what they are is people that make you feel bad, blame you for anything just to feed off your emotions. They live to do this and are generally people that can't keep relationships and blame others for their faults. They don't have many friends due to the fact that they need to pull the people down and make them feel like they do so they can feel better.

You are thinking, OMG i know people like this. Well so do I. I have to thank a dear friend for making me see this. How people need to do this to others. Its not right but they still do it. The people that do it NEED to do it and strive to do it.

As I said YES i know people like this. People that want to hurt you and are jealous of you cus you have friends, a partner, people that care and want you near them and most of all cus you are happy. Well all i can say is NO MORE for me. I am not going down this road again. I can not and will not bring myself down cus others are making me feel like shit again. NEWP not doing it.

I think I am a better person than them, I am happier, i have people that care, I have someone that loves me and most of all I am happy. :o) YES I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!

A day later and....

A day later and you have a new twin.

A day later and you try to be nice to me even after you hurt me.

A day later and you start to talk about me to people in their IMs.

A day later and people as me what is wrong with you.

A day later and you act as nothing happened.

A day later and no i won't forget what you did the day before.

A day later and I am stronger

A day later and you will not take my energy.

A day later and you will not make me feel as if i did anything to you.

A day later and yes I might miss you but I don't forgive easily.

A day later and I won't belittle you.

A day later and you made this mess but i am still your friend.

A day later and you seem to think i will crawl back to you.

Oh well... its a day later and each day will turn into another but those days i won't forget.

You know...

You know I could have listened to all those people that said your a bitch but i didn't.

You know I could have listened to all those people that said you aren't worth having as a friend but i didn't.

You know I could have looked at how you treated some people but i closed my eyes cus you were hurt by them.

You know I could have opened my eyes and waited til you healed totally before going shopping, which now i hardly do.

You know a friend like you doesn't come around alot but when they do you make a mark on the people that care about you.

You know I could listen to people that say you aren't worth it, that you would hurt me again and will just jump to a conclusion when you don't know the whole story.

You know I care about you alot, you are a great friend, a true one at that and never thought you would hurt me like you did and rip that part of my heart out and stamp on but you did.

You know there will be no other friends that can replace you, no shopping buddy or twin. No one that means alot to me but you don't seem to realise this.

You think I hurt you on spite for some reason but i didn't, i would never. I could never.

You know that I will be hurting so bad since that comment you made but I guess that is your way of hurting people back. Ripping their hearts apart and stamping that heel thru it so that will it will crumble to bits.

Well a few things you don't know

You don't know I don't listen to what people say. I make my own decisions.

You don't know that I care about you and will be your friend even tho you took me out of your picks, left all groups and most likely removed your friendship from me.

You also don't know that I will never talk about you behind your back, will never put you on mute and will never ever hurt you like you did me.

Saying that I care about you even after everything you said in open chat and to people in IMs.

I am a real person with real feelings and care allot about you. I will miss you and if you would like to mend our friendship I am there ready to do that.

Empty Inside

This hurts cus people don't seem to think who was there when she needed someone. NOt only me but others. First I get told you are thinking about leaving SL then today you take a swipe at me when I didn't do shyt. I made an outfit for someone, didn't think that person was coming on so I wore it. Then i got told that I was making this person a twin.


I have tried my hardest to get my sister back but she seems to think I don't want her around anymore or most of all need her around. Yes she resigned as my twin, my friend and removed me from her Picks and most likely left all the groups she joined cus of me. BUT Mir will always be my friend and I do love her like a sister. She will always be my deadly mint twin.


She might not think I need to talk to her, or even want to. Most likely she has me on mute BUT she has done the same thing to me that was done to her. One day we are talking nice and happy like, then the next day I get snubbed. I try to talk to her each morning and all I get is a one word answer. Then I get told that I am talk to others about shopping and hair, when I have tried my damnedest to talk to her all last week and so on but she wouldn't respond to me. It was I am busy or in the middle of something. We use to talk alot about things but since that prick hurting her I guess the best thing for her to do is hurt people back that care about her.


Well Mir, you did it. You hurt me, you promised you would be there for me and instead you have hurt me. You have pulled me apart and most of all made it so i am not sure about trusting others. Maybe i shouldn't of ever came on here... Maybe i was never needed in the first place. Maybe, just maybe i am the one at fault. Maybe even I might an answer to this. I don't know all I know is i feel empty, hurt and on E.


Comment all you want, talk to me behind my back and make comments in IMs about me and things I make etc. Hurt me more cus I still have life in me. BUT remember this I will never hurt you intentionally, I will never talk about you behind you back and I WILL NEVER EVER stop caring about you Mir you were and are a huge part of my life on SL you are my friend/sister.

Friends...

I don't know what happened, not sure what I said but I must have did something to someone cus I think i am loosing a good friend. She says she is pulling away from everyone and I can understand that, she was hurt bad. I just feel lost. Yes i have other friends but what she doesn't seem to understand is that I care about her. She is one of the best persons I know.

I hope to gawd that she knows this.... i don't know. Maybe I'm not needed around SL anymore. At least Xen wants me there.

Sorry for whatever, if I said something or even an action i did. I didn't mean it at all.

Skins...

Yes you will see me with different Skins on SL, i mainly use my normal one but this one I got in Sept and Xen seems to love it. PLUS to top it off... MEN don't hit on me when I'm in this skin.

NO i don't Role Play (RP) when i am in SL. I just like how it looks and how mysterious I look in it. Yes its different and you don't see tons and tons of drows in it. PLUS this one hardly changes my facial features and I think Lydia did a kick ass job on this Skin. Thanks Lydia, you feckin rock!!!!!!!

You want to know about drows... looks here - http://drowcampaign.roleplaynexus.com/drowpersonality.html

We might be Poor....

Yes we might be poor, but WOW do we look good or what... DAMN...

Bullet With a Name - NONPOINT

I DIDN'T DO IT... I SWEAR... I hired someone hehehhe.

Our Wedding Song, Xen's choice of course, what a romantic man he is....

My disposition is in a position for all to see.
Regretless for how it feels.
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.

Because the cause for all, the pause you think you see
is really concentration on the steel.
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.

See everybody watching and passing judgment
on every little move and decision I make.
How can I be an individual with the weight of the world
with 8 other planets to take?
and with everything happening
gunshots clapping and people all
running in every direction
with their hands up praying for the drama to end,
I got my hand out looking for some money to spend.

Chorus
The price tags on the things I need are getting bigger by the day
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.
The way I work so hard for things they just take away from me.
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.

I'm working harder than a hundred black mules down in Mexico.
No water, no clouds, no cover,
from the hotter than Hell no dinner bell,
empty oven again from another bad opinion.
I mean who doesn't want the cars,
money, fame, attention, bars, honeys,
games, attention, stars?
Funny how we say we don't need it
then turn around and try to achieve it.

[Chours]

Everything that they say about me.
And everything that they make me need,
are nothing when they're taking everything away from me.
Everyone trying to make it harder
and everyone saying I would never be.
You're nothing but a name on the bullet that I aim...

[Chours]

Mickey & Minnie Huet

Yes we are silly alot of times. This is us dressed up as Mickey and Minnie Mouse for a Strangest Dressed Event. NO we didn't win but DAMN are we feckin CUTE or what LOL

Tri

Yes this is TRI, the small one at the top. We were at the Nutter Family Home laying in the water floating. Yes we have all our clothes on and we were the soggy bottoms girls hehehe. Its weird but that is very relaxing. :o)

Pick of Madi & Family

Our First Family Pic

Daddy and his little angel

Mommy and her precious girl

Rez Days & Birthdays

Ok with SL comes REZ DAYS, this is the day your AVI was made in SL and shows in your profile. Some people i know bitch and complain about not celebrating the Rez Day or even forgetting it.

I know one place i work decorates for people with Rez Days and even Birthdays. Recently I read a post where someone bitched on their blog about it and then got the place decorated.

Even this past friday I noticed that alot of ppl had on happy birthday things for the Host and the floor decorated.

This doesn't mean it will happen all the time. If it does feel honored and if it doesn't GET OVER IT!!!!!

Well mine was the 4th of March and my RL birthday was the 7th of March. Everyone forgot about my Rez Day it happens, Yes i was hurt but I got over it. My Birthday the people that remembered showed me that they care about me ALOT and this made me EXTREMELY happy. I might not have gotten a dance floor of lag causing stuff BUT i got friends that said Happy Birthday and meant it. Which to tell you the truth meant more to me than any balloon can.

Thanks to everyone that said Happy Birthday. I love ya all.

...

You know... people call me all sorts of things, like self centred, bitch, slut, tease and not sure why.

Well in the past year I have been on SL I have been used and thrown away by alot of people. Hurt and talked about by the same so called freinds. It seems that I am only good enough to talk to when, 1. there is no one else on, 2. when they need something made, 3. when their men or girls dump them and 4. sex or to make their ex's jealous.

People think SL is a game, well it isn't, there is a living breathing person with a set of emotions behind every Avatar and to use people like that is uncalled for.

I have been used to run clubs for my so called friends, used when they get drumped 3 times in one week and about 20 times in one month, used when no one else is around to talk to. Not all my friends do this but it seems most of them do. They find "new" freinds and when they aren't around I become useless...

I remember a saying from Girl Scouts "Make New Friends but keep the old... one is silver and the other Gold." That is always in my mind... I may make new friends but i try my hardest to keep all my old ones. The friends that have been here for me thru everything from the dick Eru dumping me, to Robert treating me like shit (which he always did) and to Max using me as a Side Bit, and not to mention the Lucifer's shit club almost costing me my Love.

I might have a man or a new friend but i am ALWAYS there for my old and dearest friends. They mean the world to me. So please if you want friendship from me, don't use me, don't hurt me, and DO NOT EVER ask me for sex or to cheat on my love and ABOVE ALL never belittle my friends to me. They are my friends and I will not respond with nothing other than defense for them.

Yeppers...

Some people come into your life, leave and you couldn't care less. OTHERS however come into your life, make you feel wanted, needed, loved, cared for, and happy.

I know a very few people like this... Xen, of course is one of them, Mir, Nikki, Tri, Kaedy and Rykk are the others.

You will see i mention these guys alot in my profile, my blog and almost anywhere. That is cus these people mean something to me in SL and RL. I care for them and wouldn't change anything about them. These 6 people have been in my life for a while, well except Tri she is new but OMG she is nuts.

Xen i met thru a friend and we clicked instantly. Hung out alot, talked even more via IMs, he would be doing his thing and I would be doing mine and he would always IM me. Was real nice and I loved it and still do. I am his Brat and he is my asshole. (that don't sound right but i hope you know what i mean) . He gets along with all my friends and picks on a few of them. Xen is now a NEED not a want I NEED him in my life, he is my sanity or as close as you can get to it. Xen is my best friend and I woudlnt' change that for the world. We might stay home alot and talk, cuddle and what not... but how i see it, a relationship isn't based on sex. Xen wants to be with me and I him. He is someone that I wouldn't give up without a fight and wouldn't do anything to hurt him.

Nikki I have know since a week after I started SL. We have been thru alot together and i love her and yes we do have our fights but that is what sisters do. Nikki knows me and we both know that we are there for each other and would talk to each other and say whatever is on our minds even if we know it will hurt. It happens but we both need a good kick up the ass sometimes. Nikki I wouldn't give up for anything and she knows this. I know recently i have been distant but I love her like i have always have. heheh She has been thru alot of shit and men with me. She was the one that I first told about Xen and was there when I was on my bad streak with men and almost left SL. I am glad I didn't cus i wouldn't have met Xen at all. Thanks Sis.

Mir... well Mir and I are known as the Deadly Mint Twins where we work. She is one of the best DJs around and the sense of humor she has is awesome. We have been thru alot since Last July, I still remember the first time we dressed alike... it was the 4th of July when Xen asked me to Partner with him. She made the day start out perfect for me. If i listened to people that called her a bitch and stuck up etc... I wouldn't have ever met a great friend like her. BTW never EVER get inbetween us shopping, Xen did once... ONCE.... and he learned very very very quick, not to come between Mir & I shopping. She also helps me with my hair addiction. Recently, I think i said some stuff that pissed her off and not sure what but I feel lost without my sis. She is a great person and I don't mean to hurt or say anything hurtful... I am sorry.

Rykk,. the first time i met Rykk was when i worked with him at Sanctuary Rock. His music kicked ass and he called him long lost sister/cousin and it stuck. Rykk is a great man, i can count on him for a daily hug and a smile. I know i have been sarce at his gigs lately and I am sorry for this. I love my bro and will be at his gigs again very SOON... Rykk is awesome, he can make me laugh and smile if my day starts out bad. I know he is there for a shoulder and i will always be there for my bro. He loves music like i do. *HUGGLES* bro.

Kaedy... OMFG.... Kaedy is Rykk's RL & SL wife... SHE IS FUCKING NUTS... Now with that said... She is funny, she will IM me with the funniest comments and I usually end up saying them in open chat. Only she and I gets it but OMG people are like WTF is that about LOL. Kaedy and i met at one of Rykk's gigs and sicne then we might not talk each and everyday but when we do we come up with some funny shit. LOL... BTW she is VERY POSSESSIVE... stay away from her man and those buns she likes from EDINBURGH... OMG they are so GOOD and heheh She don't have any :oP hehehheheheh.

Last but not least Tri, Tri is new, she started in January and is one awesome chick. We hit it right off and she became my ikkle nutter. I love this girl alot and wouldn't change her for the world. She has bitched to me and I to her and OMG what a shopper. Mir, her and I went at the Carnival of Doom once and I swore it was Mir... but soon found out it wasn't... It's TRI... she is the addict LOL. and hair addiction too. She can't walk into a hair store without buying hair LOL. YES this girl is nuts and has helped me find some new hair LOL. She is a newer friend and yes i trust her and love her alot. Thanks Chicky.

All these people mean alot to me. I will always be there for them when they need me NO MATTER what. They are the best things about SL and sometimes the only reason I will stay. Thanks to each and everyone of you. YOU ALL KICK SOME SERIOUS ASS. *GROUP HUGS*

Yes i am being silly...

I found those in my email today and thought I had too... Yes i am being silly but i don't care, you don't like then don't read them. Very SIMPLE.... hehehhee

BLAH BLAH BLAH....

AND also, why are you on SL www.secondlife.com you need to be, go to that site, create an account and then get your ass up to Sanctuary Rock... LIKE NOW SHEESH stop feckin reading already and do it!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will expect you there before 8AM SL time. HURRY NOW!!!!!!

hehehe

And you thought you knew EVERYTHING

1. The liquid inside young coconuts can be used as a substitute for Blood plasma.
2. No piece of paper can be folded in half more than seven (7) times. Oh go ahead...I'll wait...~
3. Donkeys kill more people annually Than plane crashes or shark attacks. (Watch your Ass )
4. You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching television.
5. Oak trees do not produce acorns until they are fifty (50) years of age or older.
6. The first product to have a bar code was Wrigley's gum.
7. The King of Hearts is the only king WITHOUT A MOUSTACHE
8. American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one (1) olive from each salad served in first-class.
9. Venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise. (Since Venus is normally associated with women,what does this tell you!)
10. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
11. Most dust particles in your house are made from DEAD SKIN!
12. The first owner of the Marlboro Company died of lung cancer. So did the first " Marlboro Man. "
13. Walt Disney was afraid OF MICE!
14. PEARLS MELT IN VINEGAR!
15. The three most valuable brand names on earth: Marlboro, Coca Cola, and Budweiser, in that order.
16. It is possible to lead a cow upstairs... but, not downstairs.
17. A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why.
18. Dentists have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least six (6) feet away from a toilet to avoid airborne particles resulting from the flush. (I keep my toothbrush in the living room now!)
19. Richard Millhouse Nixon was the first U.S. president whose name contains all the letters from the word "criminal." (who thinks up this stuff???)
20. The second? William Jefferson Clinton (Please don't tell me you're SURPRISED!!!)
21. And the best for last..... Turtles can breathe through their butts. (I know some people like that, don't YOU?)

NOW YOU KNOW EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stress Management does matter.

Just in case you've had a rough day or you ARE having a rough day, here is a QUICK 7-Step stress management technique recommended in the latest psychological texts. The funny thing is - this really works.

Try this:

1. Picture yourself near a stream.
2. Birds are softly chirping in the cool mountain air.
3. No one but you knows your secret place.
4. You are in total seclusion from the hectic place called "the world."
5. The soothing sound of a gentle waterfall fills the air with a cascade of serenity.
6. The water is crystal clear.
7. You can easily make out the face of the person you're holding underwater.See - You are smiling already.

My Mood Lately

Firstly, let me say Xen baby I am seriously sorry for my mood lately. Sorry for it seriously.

Also to my dear friends, Mir, Tri, Nikki, Rykk and Kaedy. I am sorry for the way i have been lately. i know i have been off lately and i have been shuttin each of you out especially Xen.

You guys mean the world to me, you can make me laugh when i am upset. Make me see the better sides of things when i am in a mood like this.

I have been especially taking this mood out on my sister Nikki and Loving partner Xen. To you 2 i am so feckin sorry... things have been piling on top of me lately and I so thought the only way to do anything about it was to shut you out.

Shut all of you guys out. I don't mean this and gawd knows i must have hurt you guys doing this. Please, please forgive me for this. You 6 ppl mean so much to me and i don't want to loose this.

I love you guys. My sisters Nik, Mir and Kaedy, my Bro Rykk, ikkly nutter Tri and especially my Xen. Without you guys I would have been gone ALONG time ago. Thank you. I know i don't say it enough but you guys mean tons to me. *HUGS*

I promise i will change.