WOW 1 Year on...

WOW baby one year on and we are closer than anyone can be. I love you more now than I did when we got married.

Today we sat and talked about the last year, when we knew we were serious and how people said we would only last a week. How people thought I would hurt Xen and how there was that moment where we both were on the departnering page but never actually did it. We got thru it all.

Like anyone we have our downs but we get up and we are stronger. Ya there are still pricks on SL that are trying to split us up. That try to hurt us when possible. But to them all I have to say is, I understand you are jealous and upset cus you don't have what we have but if you tried to relax and not hurt people you might actually find someone.

We can sit on the beach and just talk for hours, play silly games, do silly things, and even IM our friends and screw with their minds LOL. We have done some right silly things in the pat year, showing up at a sexy event dressed like rag dolls, or a formal event dressed like a nun & a priest. OMG we even went to a Blues club dressed as Fred and Wilma. We also have a serious side, like when my sister Nikki got married, Xen walked her down the isle and i was asked to be the Bish of Honor LOL something i am good at. We made the day hers and only hers. It was perfect.

Xen is like myself but smellier LOL that's cuz he's a BOY and BOYS gots cooties!!!!! EWWWWWWWWWW.... He loves to read what i write and keeps telling me I am getting spanked but weird HE NEVER DOES IT... pfft what a lie, i get my hopes up and nuttin LOL. MEN...

Xen came into my life a year ago today and we have never looked back since. When we got married he made me see that it was US and US only that mattered. I don't know what we are doing today. All i know is I would love to spend the day with him and our friends just sitting back and enjoying ourselves. I think that's all that matters.

We have each other and the few people that we allow into our lives. Especially our baby girl Madi and not to mention the nutters :o).

Thank you to everyone for putting up with our silliness, weirdness and loving. You all know who you are.... Baby you are the best in my eyes and i will never ever give you up. Wait til the 1 year wedding anniversary WOW that will be great... i should start planning it now :o) Love you baby.

Baby Your the Greatest....

Yes I look a bit different in this pic but he still loves me. WOW baby one more day and it wll be offically 1 year since we met. WOW, the stuff we have gone thru, almost breaking up, some fights we had, but we always got up after it. Right up and we are stronger and tighter than ever.

Without you i would have just built stuff to give away instead of looking for a place for a store. Without you i wouldn't have stayed on SL as long as this. Without you in my life I would be just another avi looking for something that i would never find. Instead out of the blue a man, with the IM that said... "Those legs would look good wrapped around me...oh btw Hi I'm Xen =)" I was like how rude and just started talking to him. From then on we haven't been able to stay away from each other.

He makes me smile when i am down, knows my moods and even knows the "Xen's an asshole" outfit. This man is someone that every woman looks for but doesn't realise they have it.

All i can say is baby your the greatest and the best thing to happen to me in a long long time. You are all mine, a need, a must have... you are the air I breathe & the water I drink. You are what i need to survive both SL & RL.

I take you off SL every night when we log. I close my eyes and see you and smile. When i am lonely I log off and think about you. When i need to smile I just look at some pictures and remember things we have done and a smile appears on my face.

I can't be away from you love. You my dearest man, are something that I need. I need you Xen I need you more than life itself at times. I care more about you than anything else.

A year has past and these feelings just grow stronger and stronger. You came into my life as a friend and you are now in my heart as a lover and husband. You never hurt me or when you do you don't mean it. I know you will never leave me and rip me apart like some have and this I know is not a lie.

Thank you for loving me and making me yours and ONLY yours. One day left and it will be a year :o) WOW

A great man

Anyone that knows me, knows how i talk about my Xen. YES MY XEN no one elses and he is the best. This man puts up with me thru everything. He has been there when i was at my lowest cheering me up, pulling me off the walls when i am hyper, talking with me when i am pissed off trying to chill me out. Even stuck by thru Lucifers and Gothic Perfections.

This man might get moody at times, be an asshole most of the time (the good kind of asshole not the nasty kind), and play pranks on people, even suck souls thru noses when people aren't around. But this man is my everything. He is my best friend, my partner in crime, my baby, my love, my lover, and my husband. He is funny and silly, you can tell that by the pictures of him and I dressed as Rag Dolls, Mice and he has even dressed up as a priest.

Xen is amazing, I never thought we would last this long but on May 1st we will be together for a year. Its weird how when you first start a friendship you don't expect it to evolve into anything but that. We got closer as the weeks went by and found that each of us would log onto the SL to see each other, wanting to spend time together nothing more. He moved in with me on the 1st of July, which made me speechless, then asked me to partner him on the 4th of July, again speechless, and then on the 8th of July he asked me to be his wife. OMG you talk about speechless. We finally got married on the 13th of July, yes it was quick but it was perfect. We had the people there that we wanted and that is all that counted.

I log on and I think of Xen, I smile so wide when i think of this man its shocking. I never thought i would feel this way about him but I love him. With all my heart and soul. No one will tear us apart. People have tired many times, sending him pics, saying that i was with someone else when Xen could tell it wasn't me. Sending them logs and all this other shit. Sorry ladies and gents, it won't work. I might flirt when i work but the people that know me, know that I am all his and you can try all you want but I am ONLY his and he is MINE!

Also, for you people that said we would only last a year... Baby, look at us now. All you guys that dumped my friendship cus I was with him... YOUR OWN FAULT... you had so much time to be with me, YOUR loss NOT mine. I got a right treasure here and i won't be giving him up ever.

Also to the first guy who went on a hissy fit, telling me to back off and when i did, I moved on with my life. You then started to talk to me sending TP's to talk to you thinking that we would get together. Then when i told you i was partnering Xen you thru the ultimate hissy fit that almost made Xen think twice about it... well dick... I am so happy, I got the best man and it you have shown me thru what 3 partners so far you had, that I would have been just a thing for you to play with til I was broken and then you would have gotten rid of me.

The second guy, who i was just a side thing to while he was with his main thing. Dumping me each weekend and hurting me so many times. I am happy i made that decision that i wanted to stay with Xen and not you. You acted like the biggest baby, picking fights, sending me sex things thinking that you would change my mind. Most of all just hurting me. Well Xen told me each weekend that you would come back he would sit there and see my name on and know i was with you, when most of the time I was alone and you were with her. That hurt him so much and in my heart I know i didn't want you anymore but i wanted someone of my own... Well I have him.

Xen you my one and only, my heart, my soul, my friend. The only man that will ever know me the way you, a husband should know me. You know me on and off line. You get me, understand me, know my moods, and most of all love me for me and not wanting to change me. Ok ya I wear cookie protection or play ground covering now but that is me. That is all you have asked over the last year and i am shocked, when that is all you want me to change. Well baby I am willing to change anything for you. I hope you know this.

My love, you are mine and all mine. You are the one for me and I will always be yours. I love you baby... i do.