WOW 1 Year on...

WOW baby one year on and we are closer than anyone can be. I love you more now than I did when we got married.

Today we sat and talked about the last year, when we knew we were serious and how people said we would only last a week. How people thought I would hurt Xen and how there was that moment where we both were on the departnering page but never actually did it. We got thru it all.

Like anyone we have our downs but we get up and we are stronger. Ya there are still pricks on SL that are trying to split us up. That try to hurt us when possible. But to them all I have to say is, I understand you are jealous and upset cus you don't have what we have but if you tried to relax and not hurt people you might actually find someone.

We can sit on the beach and just talk for hours, play silly games, do silly things, and even IM our friends and screw with their minds LOL. We have done some right silly things in the pat year, showing up at a sexy event dressed like rag dolls, or a formal event dressed like a nun & a priest. OMG we even went to a Blues club dressed as Fred and Wilma. We also have a serious side, like when my sister Nikki got married, Xen walked her down the isle and i was asked to be the Bish of Honor LOL something i am good at. We made the day hers and only hers. It was perfect.

Xen is like myself but smellier LOL that's cuz he's a BOY and BOYS gots cooties!!!!! EWWWWWWWWWW.... He loves to read what i write and keeps telling me I am getting spanked but weird HE NEVER DOES IT... pfft what a lie, i get my hopes up and nuttin LOL. MEN...

Xen came into my life a year ago today and we have never looked back since. When we got married he made me see that it was US and US only that mattered. I don't know what we are doing today. All i know is I would love to spend the day with him and our friends just sitting back and enjoying ourselves. I think that's all that matters.

We have each other and the few people that we allow into our lives. Especially our baby girl Madi and not to mention the nutters :o).

Thank you to everyone for putting up with our silliness, weirdness and loving. You all know who you are.... Baby you are the best in my eyes and i will never ever give you up. Wait til the 1 year wedding anniversary WOW that will be great... i should start planning it now :o) Love you baby.

Baby Your the Greatest....

Yes I look a bit different in this pic but he still loves me. WOW baby one more day and it wll be offically 1 year since we met. WOW, the stuff we have gone thru, almost breaking up, some fights we had, but we always got up after it. Right up and we are stronger and tighter than ever.

Without you i would have just built stuff to give away instead of looking for a place for a store. Without you i wouldn't have stayed on SL as long as this. Without you in my life I would be just another avi looking for something that i would never find. Instead out of the blue a man, with the IM that said... "Those legs would look good wrapped around me...oh btw Hi I'm Xen =)" I was like how rude and just started talking to him. From then on we haven't been able to stay away from each other.

He makes me smile when i am down, knows my moods and even knows the "Xen's an asshole" outfit. This man is someone that every woman looks for but doesn't realise they have it.

All i can say is baby your the greatest and the best thing to happen to me in a long long time. You are all mine, a need, a must have... you are the air I breathe & the water I drink. You are what i need to survive both SL & RL.

I take you off SL every night when we log. I close my eyes and see you and smile. When i am lonely I log off and think about you. When i need to smile I just look at some pictures and remember things we have done and a smile appears on my face.

I can't be away from you love. You my dearest man, are something that I need. I need you Xen I need you more than life itself at times. I care more about you than anything else.

A year has past and these feelings just grow stronger and stronger. You came into my life as a friend and you are now in my heart as a lover and husband. You never hurt me or when you do you don't mean it. I know you will never leave me and rip me apart like some have and this I know is not a lie.

Thank you for loving me and making me yours and ONLY yours. One day left and it will be a year :o) WOW

A great man

Anyone that knows me, knows how i talk about my Xen. YES MY XEN no one elses and he is the best. This man puts up with me thru everything. He has been there when i was at my lowest cheering me up, pulling me off the walls when i am hyper, talking with me when i am pissed off trying to chill me out. Even stuck by thru Lucifers and Gothic Perfections.

This man might get moody at times, be an asshole most of the time (the good kind of asshole not the nasty kind), and play pranks on people, even suck souls thru noses when people aren't around. But this man is my everything. He is my best friend, my partner in crime, my baby, my love, my lover, and my husband. He is funny and silly, you can tell that by the pictures of him and I dressed as Rag Dolls, Mice and he has even dressed up as a priest.

Xen is amazing, I never thought we would last this long but on May 1st we will be together for a year. Its weird how when you first start a friendship you don't expect it to evolve into anything but that. We got closer as the weeks went by and found that each of us would log onto the SL to see each other, wanting to spend time together nothing more. He moved in with me on the 1st of July, which made me speechless, then asked me to partner him on the 4th of July, again speechless, and then on the 8th of July he asked me to be his wife. OMG you talk about speechless. We finally got married on the 13th of July, yes it was quick but it was perfect. We had the people there that we wanted and that is all that counted.

I log on and I think of Xen, I smile so wide when i think of this man its shocking. I never thought i would feel this way about him but I love him. With all my heart and soul. No one will tear us apart. People have tired many times, sending him pics, saying that i was with someone else when Xen could tell it wasn't me. Sending them logs and all this other shit. Sorry ladies and gents, it won't work. I might flirt when i work but the people that know me, know that I am all his and you can try all you want but I am ONLY his and he is MINE!

Also, for you people that said we would only last a year... Baby, look at us now. All you guys that dumped my friendship cus I was with him... YOUR OWN FAULT... you had so much time to be with me, YOUR loss NOT mine. I got a right treasure here and i won't be giving him up ever.

Also to the first guy who went on a hissy fit, telling me to back off and when i did, I moved on with my life. You then started to talk to me sending TP's to talk to you thinking that we would get together. Then when i told you i was partnering Xen you thru the ultimate hissy fit that almost made Xen think twice about it... well dick... I am so happy, I got the best man and it you have shown me thru what 3 partners so far you had, that I would have been just a thing for you to play with til I was broken and then you would have gotten rid of me.

The second guy, who i was just a side thing to while he was with his main thing. Dumping me each weekend and hurting me so many times. I am happy i made that decision that i wanted to stay with Xen and not you. You acted like the biggest baby, picking fights, sending me sex things thinking that you would change my mind. Most of all just hurting me. Well Xen told me each weekend that you would come back he would sit there and see my name on and know i was with you, when most of the time I was alone and you were with her. That hurt him so much and in my heart I know i didn't want you anymore but i wanted someone of my own... Well I have him.

Xen you my one and only, my heart, my soul, my friend. The only man that will ever know me the way you, a husband should know me. You know me on and off line. You get me, understand me, know my moods, and most of all love me for me and not wanting to change me. Ok ya I wear cookie protection or play ground covering now but that is me. That is all you have asked over the last year and i am shocked, when that is all you want me to change. Well baby I am willing to change anything for you. I hope you know this.

My love, you are mine and all mine. You are the one for me and I will always be yours. I love you baby... i do.

A day later and....

A day later and you have a new twin.

A day later and you try to be nice to me even after you hurt me.

A day later and you start to talk about me to people in their IMs.

A day later and people as me what is wrong with you.

A day later and you act as nothing happened.

A day later and no i won't forget what you did the day before.

A day later and I am stronger

A day later and you will not take my energy.

A day later and you will not make me feel as if i did anything to you.

A day later and yes I might miss you but I don't forgive easily.

A day later and I won't belittle you.

A day later and you made this mess but i am still your friend.

A day later and you seem to think i will crawl back to you.

Oh well... its a day later and each day will turn into another but those days i won't forget.

You know...

You know I could have listened to all those people that said your a bitch but i didn't.

You know I could have listened to all those people that said you aren't worth having as a friend but i didn't.

You know I could have looked at how you treated some people but i closed my eyes cus you were hurt by them.

You know I could have opened my eyes and waited til you healed totally before going shopping, which now i hardly do.

You know a friend like you doesn't come around alot but when they do you make a mark on the people that care about you.

You know I could listen to people that say you aren't worth it, that you would hurt me again and will just jump to a conclusion when you don't know the whole story.

You know I care about you alot, you are a great friend, a true one at that and never thought you would hurt me like you did and rip that part of my heart out and stamp on but you did.

You know there will be no other friends that can replace you, no shopping buddy or twin. No one that means alot to me but you don't seem to realise this.

You think I hurt you on spite for some reason but i didn't, i would never. I could never.

You know that I will be hurting so bad since that comment you made but I guess that is your way of hurting people back. Ripping their hearts apart and stamping that heel thru it so that will it will crumble to bits.

Well a few things you don't know

You don't know I don't listen to what people say. I make my own decisions.

You don't know that I care about you and will be your friend even tho you took me out of your picks, left all groups and most likely removed your friendship from me.

You also don't know that I will never talk about you behind your back, will never put you on mute and will never ever hurt you like you did me.

Saying that I care about you even after everything you said in open chat and to people in IMs.

I am a real person with real feelings and care allot about you. I will miss you and if you would like to mend our friendship I am there ready to do that.

Empty Inside

This hurts cus people don't seem to think who was there when she needed someone. NOt only me but others. First I get told you are thinking about leaving SL then today you take a swipe at me when I didn't do shyt. I made an outfit for someone, didn't think that person was coming on so I wore it. Then i got told that I was making this person a twin.


I have tried my hardest to get my sister back but she seems to think I don't want her around anymore or most of all need her around. Yes she resigned as my twin, my friend and removed me from her Picks and most likely left all the groups she joined cus of me. BUT Mir will always be my friend and I do love her like a sister. She will always be my deadly mint twin.


She might not think I need to talk to her, or even want to. Most likely she has me on mute BUT she has done the same thing to me that was done to her. One day we are talking nice and happy like, then the next day I get snubbed. I try to talk to her each morning and all I get is a one word answer. Then I get told that I am talk to others about shopping and hair, when I have tried my damnedest to talk to her all last week and so on but she wouldn't respond to me. It was I am busy or in the middle of something. We use to talk alot about things but since that prick hurting her I guess the best thing for her to do is hurt people back that care about her.


Well Mir, you did it. You hurt me, you promised you would be there for me and instead you have hurt me. You have pulled me apart and most of all made it so i am not sure about trusting others. Maybe i shouldn't of ever came on here... Maybe i was never needed in the first place. Maybe, just maybe i am the one at fault. Maybe even I might an answer to this. I don't know all I know is i feel empty, hurt and on E.


Comment all you want, talk to me behind my back and make comments in IMs about me and things I make etc. Hurt me more cus I still have life in me. BUT remember this I will never hurt you intentionally, I will never talk about you behind you back and I WILL NEVER EVER stop caring about you Mir you were and are a huge part of my life on SL you are my friend/sister.

Friends...

I don't know what happened, not sure what I said but I must have did something to someone cus I think i am loosing a good friend. She says she is pulling away from everyone and I can understand that, she was hurt bad. I just feel lost. Yes i have other friends but what she doesn't seem to understand is that I care about her. She is one of the best persons I know.

I hope to gawd that she knows this.... i don't know. Maybe I'm not needed around SL anymore. At least Xen wants me there.

Sorry for whatever, if I said something or even an action i did. I didn't mean it at all.

Skins...

Yes you will see me with different Skins on SL, i mainly use my normal one but this one I got in Sept and Xen seems to love it. PLUS to top it off... MEN don't hit on me when I'm in this skin.

NO i don't Role Play (RP) when i am in SL. I just like how it looks and how mysterious I look in it. Yes its different and you don't see tons and tons of drows in it. PLUS this one hardly changes my facial features and I think Lydia did a kick ass job on this Skin. Thanks Lydia, you feckin rock!!!!!!!

You want to know about drows... looks here - http://drowcampaign.roleplaynexus.com/drowpersonality.html

We might be Poor....

Yes we might be poor, but WOW do we look good or what... DAMN...

Bullet With a Name - NONPOINT

I DIDN'T DO IT... I SWEAR... I hired someone hehehhe.

Our Wedding Song, Xen's choice of course, what a romantic man he is....

My disposition is in a position for all to see.
Regretless for how it feels.
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.

Because the cause for all, the pause you think you see
is really concentration on the steel.
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.

See everybody watching and passing judgment
on every little move and decision I make.
How can I be an individual with the weight of the world
with 8 other planets to take?
and with everything happening
gunshots clapping and people all
running in every direction
with their hands up praying for the drama to end,
I got my hand out looking for some money to spend.

Chorus
The price tags on the things I need are getting bigger by the day
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.
The way I work so hard for things they just take away from me.
I got a bullet with a name on it.
Bullet with a name.

I'm working harder than a hundred black mules down in Mexico.
No water, no clouds, no cover,
from the hotter than Hell no dinner bell,
empty oven again from another bad opinion.
I mean who doesn't want the cars,
money, fame, attention, bars, honeys,
games, attention, stars?
Funny how we say we don't need it
then turn around and try to achieve it.

[Chours]

Everything that they say about me.
And everything that they make me need,
are nothing when they're taking everything away from me.
Everyone trying to make it harder
and everyone saying I would never be.
You're nothing but a name on the bullet that I aim...

[Chours]

Mickey & Minnie Huet

Yes we are silly alot of times. This is us dressed up as Mickey and Minnie Mouse for a Strangest Dressed Event. NO we didn't win but DAMN are we feckin CUTE or what LOL

Tri

Yes this is TRI, the small one at the top. We were at the Nutter Family Home laying in the water floating. Yes we have all our clothes on and we were the soggy bottoms girls hehehe. Its weird but that is very relaxing. :o)

Pick of Madi & Family

Our First Family Pic

Daddy and his little angel

Mommy and her precious girl

Rez Days & Birthdays

Ok with SL comes REZ DAYS, this is the day your AVI was made in SL and shows in your profile. Some people i know bitch and complain about not celebrating the Rez Day or even forgetting it.

I know one place i work decorates for people with Rez Days and even Birthdays. Recently I read a post where someone bitched on their blog about it and then got the place decorated.

Even this past friday I noticed that alot of ppl had on happy birthday things for the Host and the floor decorated.

This doesn't mean it will happen all the time. If it does feel honored and if it doesn't GET OVER IT!!!!!

Well mine was the 4th of March and my RL birthday was the 7th of March. Everyone forgot about my Rez Day it happens, Yes i was hurt but I got over it. My Birthday the people that remembered showed me that they care about me ALOT and this made me EXTREMELY happy. I might not have gotten a dance floor of lag causing stuff BUT i got friends that said Happy Birthday and meant it. Which to tell you the truth meant more to me than any balloon can.

Thanks to everyone that said Happy Birthday. I love ya all.

...

You know... people call me all sorts of things, like self centred, bitch, slut, tease and not sure why.

Well in the past year I have been on SL I have been used and thrown away by alot of people. Hurt and talked about by the same so called freinds. It seems that I am only good enough to talk to when, 1. there is no one else on, 2. when they need something made, 3. when their men or girls dump them and 4. sex or to make their ex's jealous.

People think SL is a game, well it isn't, there is a living breathing person with a set of emotions behind every Avatar and to use people like that is uncalled for.

I have been used to run clubs for my so called friends, used when they get drumped 3 times in one week and about 20 times in one month, used when no one else is around to talk to. Not all my friends do this but it seems most of them do. They find "new" freinds and when they aren't around I become useless...

I remember a saying from Girl Scouts "Make New Friends but keep the old... one is silver and the other Gold." That is always in my mind... I may make new friends but i try my hardest to keep all my old ones. The friends that have been here for me thru everything from the dick Eru dumping me, to Robert treating me like shit (which he always did) and to Max using me as a Side Bit, and not to mention the Lucifer's shit club almost costing me my Love.

I might have a man or a new friend but i am ALWAYS there for my old and dearest friends. They mean the world to me. So please if you want friendship from me, don't use me, don't hurt me, and DO NOT EVER ask me for sex or to cheat on my love and ABOVE ALL never belittle my friends to me. They are my friends and I will not respond with nothing other than defense for them.

Yeppers...

Some people come into your life, leave and you couldn't care less. OTHERS however come into your life, make you feel wanted, needed, loved, cared for, and happy.

I know a very few people like this... Xen, of course is one of them, Mir, Nikki, Tri, Kaedy and Rykk are the others.

You will see i mention these guys alot in my profile, my blog and almost anywhere. That is cus these people mean something to me in SL and RL. I care for them and wouldn't change anything about them. These 6 people have been in my life for a while, well except Tri she is new but OMG she is nuts.

Xen i met thru a friend and we clicked instantly. Hung out alot, talked even more via IMs, he would be doing his thing and I would be doing mine and he would always IM me. Was real nice and I loved it and still do. I am his Brat and he is my asshole. (that don't sound right but i hope you know what i mean) . He gets along with all my friends and picks on a few of them. Xen is now a NEED not a want I NEED him in my life, he is my sanity or as close as you can get to it. Xen is my best friend and I woudlnt' change that for the world. We might stay home alot and talk, cuddle and what not... but how i see it, a relationship isn't based on sex. Xen wants to be with me and I him. He is someone that I wouldn't give up without a fight and wouldn't do anything to hurt him.

Nikki I have know since a week after I started SL. We have been thru alot together and i love her and yes we do have our fights but that is what sisters do. Nikki knows me and we both know that we are there for each other and would talk to each other and say whatever is on our minds even if we know it will hurt. It happens but we both need a good kick up the ass sometimes. Nikki I wouldn't give up for anything and she knows this. I know recently i have been distant but I love her like i have always have. heheh She has been thru alot of shit and men with me. She was the one that I first told about Xen and was there when I was on my bad streak with men and almost left SL. I am glad I didn't cus i wouldn't have met Xen at all. Thanks Sis.

Mir... well Mir and I are known as the Deadly Mint Twins where we work. She is one of the best DJs around and the sense of humor she has is awesome. We have been thru alot since Last July, I still remember the first time we dressed alike... it was the 4th of July when Xen asked me to Partner with him. She made the day start out perfect for me. If i listened to people that called her a bitch and stuck up etc... I wouldn't have ever met a great friend like her. BTW never EVER get inbetween us shopping, Xen did once... ONCE.... and he learned very very very quick, not to come between Mir & I shopping. She also helps me with my hair addiction. Recently, I think i said some stuff that pissed her off and not sure what but I feel lost without my sis. She is a great person and I don't mean to hurt or say anything hurtful... I am sorry.

Rykk,. the first time i met Rykk was when i worked with him at Sanctuary Rock. His music kicked ass and he called him long lost sister/cousin and it stuck. Rykk is a great man, i can count on him for a daily hug and a smile. I know i have been sarce at his gigs lately and I am sorry for this. I love my bro and will be at his gigs again very SOON... Rykk is awesome, he can make me laugh and smile if my day starts out bad. I know he is there for a shoulder and i will always be there for my bro. He loves music like i do. *HUGGLES* bro.

Kaedy... OMFG.... Kaedy is Rykk's RL & SL wife... SHE IS FUCKING NUTS... Now with that said... She is funny, she will IM me with the funniest comments and I usually end up saying them in open chat. Only she and I gets it but OMG people are like WTF is that about LOL. Kaedy and i met at one of Rykk's gigs and sicne then we might not talk each and everyday but when we do we come up with some funny shit. LOL... BTW she is VERY POSSESSIVE... stay away from her man and those buns she likes from EDINBURGH... OMG they are so GOOD and heheh She don't have any :oP hehehheheheh.

Last but not least Tri, Tri is new, she started in January and is one awesome chick. We hit it right off and she became my ikkle nutter. I love this girl alot and wouldn't change her for the world. She has bitched to me and I to her and OMG what a shopper. Mir, her and I went at the Carnival of Doom once and I swore it was Mir... but soon found out it wasn't... It's TRI... she is the addict LOL. and hair addiction too. She can't walk into a hair store without buying hair LOL. YES this girl is nuts and has helped me find some new hair LOL. She is a newer friend and yes i trust her and love her alot. Thanks Chicky.

All these people mean alot to me. I will always be there for them when they need me NO MATTER what. They are the best things about SL and sometimes the only reason I will stay. Thanks to each and everyone of you. YOU ALL KICK SOME SERIOUS ASS. *GROUP HUGS*

My Mood Lately

Firstly, let me say Xen baby I am seriously sorry for my mood lately. Sorry for it seriously.

Also to my dear friends, Mir, Tri, Nikki, Rykk and Kaedy. I am sorry for the way i have been lately. i know i have been off lately and i have been shuttin each of you out especially Xen.

You guys mean the world to me, you can make me laugh when i am upset. Make me see the better sides of things when i am in a mood like this.

I have been especially taking this mood out on my sister Nikki and Loving partner Xen. To you 2 i am so feckin sorry... things have been piling on top of me lately and I so thought the only way to do anything about it was to shut you out.

Shut all of you guys out. I don't mean this and gawd knows i must have hurt you guys doing this. Please, please forgive me for this. You 6 ppl mean so much to me and i don't want to loose this.

I love you guys. My sisters Nik, Mir and Kaedy, my Bro Rykk, ikkly nutter Tri and especially my Xen. Without you guys I would have been gone ALONG time ago. Thank you. I know i don't say it enough but you guys mean tons to me. *HUGS*

I promise i will change.

Clubs... and Drama

Alot of clubs come and go, especially little ones like that. everyone wants to be like Sanctuary Rock, but none will be like that due to the fact, the people that work there are like family, Daisy the owner of SR doesn't allow things to interfere with the running of the place. This is where I first started to work over a year ago, I was a dancer and then became a host in May/June time.

Now, i met alot of ppl there and all i can say is that I love my sis Mir, my bro Rykk, and all my little nutters and nutter family members that go there.

Yes alot of places have drama and most are caused by ppl that want it in their life, I HATE DRAMA personally but eh, its SL... what the hell are ya gonna do... people are going to try and cause drama as much as possible and hurt others.

Well the main reason of this blog is to call for a BOYCOTT... I know i don't normally do this, but i feel very very strong about it. Rykk Ferraris, my bro, is no longer with Outlander's Flooded Cellar. Now the people that were not there and I showed up after alot happened but here is some of the notecard that Rykk sent out to his fans on Band Of Freaks group.

"BellaDonna Outlander's BF, BoomStick Bert decided to engage in a prick-waving contest with me. It began with him building things on the dancefloor during my set. When asked to stop, he ignored me. So I orbited him. When he got back in he returned the favor. I got back in & continued my set from where I left off, and he decided to continue to harass me. When she took up with him in February, Bella assured me that he would not interfere with my running of the club. Evidently that was untrue. I told her at that time that I would not tolerate interference from him. She chose her current avsex partner over her business partner.
So, in the middle of my set, I moved the party to my island, and gave the folks the show they came for. It's all about the music, and I really thank you guys for sticking with me. " From Rykk Ferraris' note...

Now Rykk has to be one of the best DJs in SL, he is in for the music and not the money. Currently all his tips are going for Race for Life which is a great cause. But Bella hurt her club Big style, by not allowing her business partner do what he does best and that is get ppl in that club. I know alot of the staff there won't be staying at all as Rykk got them workin in that club and i know they won't be there each week, along with my love and alot of others. In doing what Broom did he ruined the club for Bella but bella choosing her new sex partner, which won't be the last I can say that, she put her club on a death sentence. Outlanders will become a new Lucifer's nightblub, it will be cursed and no club there will survive.

I can't believe someone will risk the money they put into that club over a partner that with most track records will not be around much longer. SO think before you purchase anything from Explosive Defence Technologies and go to Outlanders clubs any where.

UPDATE.......

I was informed after I had posted this that no only did Bella screw her club over that she stole RENT from vendors that had paid 6 months in advance. When the one vendor went back to take a pic of the rent box etc... Bella and Boom have removed the rental boxes and moved their stuff in it to make it look like the renters are still there. This is wrong. People pay money REAL money that they turn into LINDENS to own homes and shops on SL. Thanks to people like Bella and also Boom that steal money from others makes others very careful not to trust alot of people on SL.

I was also given this from a VERY reliable source

[18:39] BellaDonna Outlander: yeah um i partnered with a someone you MUST play dumb too
[18:40] BellaDonna Outlander: no matter he will try to get us to change the group permissions ..... land settings ..... total control of my life ..... just SMILE
[18:40] BellaDonna Outlander: he can DJ he has his own SAM but that is ALL he is allowed [18:41] Rykk Ferraris: ????????
[18:41] BellaDonna Outlander: yeah A hates him I have known him for over a year this is the 3rd time i have partnered with him

*** My Comments*** You would think after the first time they departnered she would have learned but i guess not... So she would rather give him total control over her life AGAIN and ruin her club... OH WELL... Yes BellaDonna Outlander is an ALT. To think how stupid do you have to be to partner someone 3 times with 2 different alt... OMG...


[18:41] BellaDonna Outlander: Tim hates him
[18:42] BellaDonna Outlander: everyone who is my friend HATES him
[18:42] Rykk Ferraris: Well, nothing changes about the business, right?
[18:42] BellaDonna Outlander: nothing at all is gonna change
[18:43] Rykk Ferraris: OK, cool....have a lot of time & money invested.....and my reputation

***My Comments*** Yes all her friends hate him.. BUT yet she is still partnered with him. Seems like a RIGHT catch, eh. OMFG, can we say thick as shit... come on She says nothing changes and LOOK she banned Rykk from the land after he worked that hard at getting the club going... Everyone repeat now... Bella is..... THICK AS SHIT

[18:50] BellaDonna Outlander: yeah hopefully he will stay on his land and leave mine alone lol [18:51] Rykk Ferraris: Works for me...all is cool as long as I'm still managing the club...

***My Comments*** Ya well looks like she lied again, wonder why she needed to change to an alt. She lets ppl like that dick Boom run her life, ruin her club and hurt alot of people. Well at least Rykk will be takin the whole club staff and going somewhere that is all about the music, not how high you are on the popular list or how many people/events there are a night. Well I can't wait til Rykk Dj's again, he is ONE major KICK ass DJ and i am proud to call him my brother.

BTW Bella if you read this, You are so thick, takin a guy back into your life after you let him run it before. DUH... are you that needy that you need to have a dick like him... Hey i can give ya some money for batteries if you just need to have "PIXEL BOOM BOOM", i swear there are so many better men out there but you made your choice, HA... too bad no one will be at your club and alot of notices have went out to boycott this place also. BIT hey as someone said to me your virtual vagina is more important than you word and character. HA that fits you perfectly.

More later!!!!!!!!

Xen and our SL child

Well its weird to say the least.... here is a bit of the background...

We both would laugh at people that had these SL kids the Prim Kids etc... We would call them chuckies, cus that was what they kinda looked like. We still joke about it etc.

My sister Nikki, decided to have a a set of twins, one boy and one girl to her partner, not even married a month i think and they decided to do this. I myself thought it was stupid and she wasn't married that long and all. Just weird... when i told Xen he too thought it was a bit funny but hey it was their life. Well she tried to talk Xen and I into a child and all but no we weren't wanting one. Yes are together longer than most people and don't see anything happening to us at all but we just didn't want one. Not only the money but the time we had together was precious.

Well one day i thought i would play a joke and it kinda back fired LOL... I copied my shape and fixed it to look preggers, well he liked it. He was like lets do it. I was left speechless, i didn't know what to say. I told Nikki and when Xen came back we went to a baby clinic and looked at it all.

NOW... i have to say this. I have never been to one at all, i thought it was stupid and never wanted to step foot in one. I was completley overwhelmed.

I didn't know what to do. Nikki was saying one thing I was getting another thing from Xen. I didn't have time to think myself. I didn't know which end was up at the time. Then i was like "UGH STOP!!!!" i took a deep breathe and talked to Xen, you can do conceptions etc but that wasn't us. We were together for about 10 months at the time we decided so we had alot of practice under our belt so pfft we didn't need it. So I knew what i wanted and just getting Xen's feedback on what he wanted. We finally decided on a little girl named Madison, she is the cutest thing. I just never thought we would do it.

You have alot of things you need to decide on. Color, hair, sex, etc... you can design your own baby, which we did or just do a random thing. then you have the "talking belly" there are a few of these. I perfer the one from Fixed Bits and many other things.

Well we had an examine on the 14th of March and it was so cute they give you a hopsital gown, weigh you, check the height and event give you a scan of the baby suckin their thumb. It is too cute, with the tum and everything else WOW. Its has been good.

Well I am thrilled to say the least. On Friday the 4th of April we will have Madisson, Yes i am doing a clinic birth for this one due to the fact i haven't been preggers in RL so i would like to see how it is on SL.

Well we did it, my sis Mir & Nikki was were. Mir was keepin me laughin about schmexy outfit and Nikki chantin "Push it out Push it out.... way OUT" LOL and Xen went on about his Gurl on Gurl action in IM... OMG i was laughin so hard i couldn't type, the poor lady at Bundle of Joy Clinic must have thought i was a complete jerk.

Well the bundle of joy clinic was awesome, the people there really professional and helpful. I would recommend them to anyone that wants to try this.

MirCat - My Deadly Mint Twin

My sissy Mir, I know i said a bit about her before but recently I have missed her alot. She is hurting alot cus of how people are treating her. There is no reason for this. Mir is one of the few people I feel honored to have as a friend and even more honored to be able to call her my sister.

Mir doesn't deserve the baskstabbing, drama or anything else that is happening to her. I feel lost, unable to help or give words of comfort. I sit there and listen to her and i don't know what to say. She is an awesome person. I love her totally as a sister. I just hate the pain she is in now. I just want the healin process to start so she can smile again and not think of all this shit that has happened to her. People that are callin her a freind going around and spreading drama, hurting her and YES PEOPLE, they call SL a game but it isn't. There are real people behind that Avatar, remember this before you go and screw with their feelings.

One thing, I hate to say this but I do hope that everyone that hurt MIR in the past gets hurt worse. Its called karma and its bad to get it back 3fold. I hope each and everyone that caused her pain and broke her heart etc... gets this back horribly.

Mir if you are reading this. YOU ARE A GREAT PERSON. There are people in SL that love ya, people that care about you and people that don't want you to be hurting. I know i am one of them and i know a few others also. I will always be there for you, to talk, even tho i don't know what to say at times, to listen, which i am good at :o) and i will always care about you SIS!!!!!!

NO ONE HURTS HER AGAIN... you will have the worse karma hittin you quickly.