Baby Your the Greatest....

Yes I look a bit different in this pic but he still loves me. WOW baby one more day and it wll be offically 1 year since we met. WOW, the stuff we have gone thru, almost breaking up, some fights we had, but we always got up after it. Right up and we are stronger and tighter than ever.

Without you i would have just built stuff to give away instead of looking for a place for a store. Without you i wouldn't have stayed on SL as long as this. Without you in my life I would be just another avi looking for something that i would never find. Instead out of the blue a man, with the IM that said... "Those legs would look good wrapped around me...oh btw Hi I'm Xen =)" I was like how rude and just started talking to him. From then on we haven't been able to stay away from each other.

He makes me smile when i am down, knows my moods and even knows the "Xen's an asshole" outfit. This man is someone that every woman looks for but doesn't realise they have it.

All i can say is baby your the greatest and the best thing to happen to me in a long long time. You are all mine, a need, a must have... you are the air I breathe & the water I drink. You are what i need to survive both SL & RL.

I take you off SL every night when we log. I close my eyes and see you and smile. When i am lonely I log off and think about you. When i need to smile I just look at some pictures and remember things we have done and a smile appears on my face.

I can't be away from you love. You my dearest man, are something that I need. I need you Xen I need you more than life itself at times. I care more about you than anything else.

A year has past and these feelings just grow stronger and stronger. You came into my life as a friend and you are now in my heart as a lover and husband. You never hurt me or when you do you don't mean it. I know you will never leave me and rip me apart like some have and this I know is not a lie.

Thank you for loving me and making me yours and ONLY yours. One day left and it will be a year :o) WOW

Nikki & I

My Sis Nikki & I having some fun putting on the ears and tails I made. I miss ya chica. I might not talk to you everyday but i do think about you and I can't wait til I get home to actually be in the almost the same time zone. You mean the world to me Nikki. You are the best friend that i could ever want. :o) *HUGGLES*

You Know...

Its funny how things happen. You loose one someone that hurts you and pushes you away and only needs you on their terms and you find some new amazing people.

Firstly, we have Six, we have been kinda friends since Lucifer's and even talked a bit in SR but we have gotten to know each other and talk a some. You are amazing. Your funny, kind, caring, like a person I can't wait to become better friends with.

Fury, well you keep rocketing my daughter into space I will have to beat you up!!!!!!! But again you are great. We pick on each other, poke fun at each other. You are almost like a brother without that annoying smell that comes from the bathroom after them LOL...

You 2 guys are awesome, have helped me understand a lot of things in SL recently.

Next we have Snaptick or snappie like i call him. You are great. Tri introduced us and you are wonderful. You are worse than I am with sillyness and DON'T EVEN SAY YOU AREN'T cus YOU ARE!!!!! Snap you are both my ikkle nutter when you are madi are together and like my brother when we talk. Again like tri you tell me when something is fubard or just plain OUT THERE LOL. I am so glad i met you.

I have met a few others like Silver, Gaid, Fuzzy and Take but haven't really spent tons of time with you guys but i am assured that you guys are like snap... not sure if i should be scared or not but EH, I will find out soon enough.

All you guys came into my life when i was down. You picked me up each in your individual way and made me smile. For this I thank you all. Things happen for a reason. The reason here was to open my life up to some amazing people. I am very happy I met you all, however I am not happy how it happened. Like i said things happen for a reason...

BIG HUGGLE AND CUDDLE. Thanks all of you.

Scarey

YES I KNOW... i will be spanked again BUT there was NO WAY in hell that this wasn't going into this blog. Talk about having a phobia with clowns... DAMN i so wouldn't want to met him in a dark alley or even after the circus is over.

Yes that is Xen and Me at my brothers new club Freakheim Funeral Home. Its awesome there and the music kicks ass :o).

Ok baby you can spank me now. I will take it like a little girl LOL. Love you baby.

Drama Free

Yes I am happy, people try like hell to take that away from me alot. They don't see the point of one person being happy when they aren't happy at all. Well, what i say to them... take your anti-depressants and cheer the fuck up.

Don't screw with ppls feelings when they are happy, look at yourself, think about what makes you happy. Alot of things make me happy. Like my friends, Xen, being on my own, listening to music and doing stuff I like.

If you can't be happy, then don't ruin things for others. I mean ffs ppl, have fun, don't cause drama. that is not what life is for. You want drama, watch ER, CSi, go to a play, read a book or do your drama somewhere else. NO DRAMA here.... no one wants it OR needs it.

Tri... Snap...

Tri, you are an amazing woman. You show me that i am a great person. You make me smile when i am upset and i love you for this. You came into my life via Sanctuary Rock where i work and asked me about working and we just started talking. I knew right away you would be a dear friend. We have so much fun together. I know lately you have been with Take and fishing etc... but that doesn't bother me cus you are happy and I love you no matter what chica. You are such an awesome friend.

Snappie poo poo... The first day i met you, you welcomed me with open arms. Tri introduced us and now i have kidnapped you or better yet AVInapped you and made you a ikkle nutter. The only male ikkle nutter. You are amazing, you like Tri make sure i am happy and i have to say I am so happy to have you in my life. I can see you also become a good if not awsome friend.

My two ikkle nutters you mean alot to me. Thank you for coming into my life :o) *HUGGLES*

My love

I know i don't tell him enough I love him. Gawd almost a year and it still feels like the first time being in his arms, with him, talking to him.

This man is my everything. He knows me so much better than anyone. I can talk to him about everything. My feelings, having a bitch fest, and OMG the silliness that we get up to. Its awesome.

I see on Second Life people jumping into partnerships after 1 or 2 days, well Xen and I have been best friends since may 1st 2007 and haven't looked back since. We didn't reveil our feelings for each other til like 2-3 weeks into the freindship and then he moved in with me in July and then we partnered and volia we are here now.

This man, OMG is my SL. I feel like a piece of me is missing when he isn't around. That is why i spend alot of time building things. I miss him and this keeps my mind occupied.

Lately i haven't been on as much and i have been missing him so much. I have been so lonely without him. I know he will see this cus he likes to read the shit i post and makes sure i don't post any funny pics like Rag doll, mickey and minne and even the nerd... WHOOPS already done baby :o) YOU SO LOVE :o)

Xen is a dream come true for me. He knows my moods and i couldn't live without him.

So please one word of advice, if you are going to partner, think, SL is like RL you have feelings just like you do in the real world. You need to think about your actions. If you have an alt, make it known to the person that you are with. Yes i have an alt and she is only used to hold my lindens. So please, if you partner, don't make it such a task in spending time with each other. You partnered for a reason, cus you want your best friend/lover close to you and you don't want to be apart. So think before you do anything. I have seen too many people hurt, too many people lied to and too many people turned to stone and push their friends away. THESE are REAL FEELINGS... Second life is NOT a game.